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Thursday, August 4th, 2011
4:54 am
Gone Mad
The shop continues as strong as I can make it. With the help of everyone here we are keeping in the game. It is sad to hear when another store goes out of business. I don't know...admittedly sometimes I just wonder...

Working for yourself in anything is tough. Bills pile up. Taxes due. Legalities abound. It is stressful and every day is a new challenge. Some have the personality to take this on. I'd like to think that I do. If it weren't for the people who come to the store I can say I wouldn't be doing what I am. They are why I get up, work hard, and struggle through debt and sleepless nights.

Unless you actually DO this - live this lifestyle - I cannot describe it to you accurately. This is also, for those who chide business owners as richy-riches, fatcats, greedy, etc., I am so impassioned to correct. Many times the line is tight and things can be month-to-month. Juggling, negotiating, budgeting, and savvy are needed and I have failed to keep several of those plates spinning. It just takes one slip and things go awry.

What if I had to close?

That is the tough question I have to face, and ask myself, every day. Not as a source of fear, but a motivator to stay up on things.

Oh, also as it has been customary for my posts I am pissed off at Congress (Rs and Ds). What a bunch of weaklings who must love to masturbate politically in front of the entire nation. It is sickening. 2012 can't come fast enough to flush the crap out of there.

I just may be a beard and scattergun away from being a mountain man, or maybe more people agree with me than it seems?

Some day I will have a happy-go-lucky post like the days of yore. Hang in there.
Tuesday, July 26th, 2011
3:24 am
Months have passed...
It is sad that at this point, while months have passed since my last entry, the most burning, pressing thing on my mind right now is a smoldering rumination at just how ignorant a man we have as our president. Sigh...

Apart from that life continues on steadily as I try, despite our government's best efforts, to make a living for myself. Engaging with my local community, putting time and effort into what I do, getting to know those who are my regulars. Busting my ass online and off. I cheer on my friends and family as they try to live their own lives as well. Work, school, hobbies, whatever motivates them.

Keep at it!
Friday, April 29th, 2011
8:23 am
Up for air.
A lot has been going on as my lack of being on here much indicates. I hope you all in LJ Land have been happy and productive. I'll offer a quick recap of what has occurred...

1. Still running my business. Until you actually do something like this for yourself it is difficult to describe the love and sadness, stress and euphoria involved. Well, maybe if you have had kids...it is kind of like that I suppose.

2. Still upset with the gubmint. How anyone, even those on the left, can still like what is happening is beyond me. Do any of you actually buy what is happening or how it is being explained? How about that $4 gas that apparently has nothing to do with federal policy at all? Just sickening...

3. I want to travel more. I haven't been out of state in a while and out of country in a couple years. That will help clear the cobwebs and maybe I can meet some of my friends scattered since various days of yore.

4. I dunno, stuff. Filler. Bla bla bla. OMG lol wut u say? 4rlz?

5. Been playing and enjoying a lot of Minecraft, have any of you tried it?

Hope I can start to reconnect!
Saturday, December 25th, 2010
6:16 pm
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas to you all, my friends. May this day bring you peace and happiness, warmth and companionship from friends, family, a pet, or other source (I suppose Facebook or the like can count too).
Sunday, December 12th, 2010
4:12 pm
Sporadic
Blah, it has been a while and I need to at least make a reasonable attempt to maintain my thoughts here else...well, what good is this serving me? It is mid-December now and things have been slow and steady (more on the steadily slow side). It has been good to see family and whatnot but I've had some overarching personal concerns that have had me down for a while. A couple months ago I was diagnosed with diabetes stemming from a physical which also revealed high blood pressure, cholesterol, and sleep apnea. Fortunately these are being taken care of little by little. My weight has been going down and I will be getting a CPAP or BiPAP soon. I am on meds for the diabetes and blood pressure, but not cholesterol yet as we are going to wait and see how the rest of my body works with its changes in lifestyle first. Hopefully with restoring my body chemistry, sleeping better, and losing weight I can get off the BP medication too. That just leaves me with my twice-a-day pills and injections for the 'beetus.

I've felt a bit better politically since November but I am still somewhat disappointed (fully realizing I can never be satisfied all the time when it comes to this). What saddens me the most is the class warfare being promoted by our political "leaders". For some reason it is entirely ok to treat differently, dislike, or completely throw "rich" people under the bus. In today's world would you or anyone else survive in the public light by advocating treating blacks differently? We are told by our leaders to NOT be productive, strive to accumulate personal success and wealth, or to actually be leaders ourselves by employing others or creating goods/services that others desire. If you do that, you are the enemy, one of "those people". The next time you hear a politician on TV say that the rich should be taxed more (any other issues aside) I want you to replace rich with something else: black, gay, Muslim, women, Catholics, etc.

Hope that things are going well for you and yours. Take care.
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2010
11:34 am
Mostly Alright
Well the long-held breath can finally be exhaled. I'm comfortable with what happened yesterday, even pending the contested races. Not just for Ohio but for the country. Now the question is whether or not these people will make good on their intentions to actually listen to their constituents and follow the Constitution? Only time will tell because if they don't, no matter the party, I will help kick them out.

On a side note...have you ever wondered what your national representatives and senators would score on a high school civics test? Or American history? How do you think they will do?
Sunday, August 8th, 2010
5:25 am
Not-Rage
Well I'm not going to vent about politics this time despite many opportunities since last post to do so. Instead I am going to make a simple post about how life is going. This is a blog after all!

Taking a step back from things, I have deepened my appreciation for life. Every day seems like a fight but when I come home and can put my feet up I can smile and be proud (despite me almost being in tears some days). It's a thrill of sorts to own your own business, but then again so is bungee jumping into a spiked pit where you calculate the cord will spring you back up an inch from the spike tips. I love what I do and am very blessed to be able to share it with the people I do. It is my sustenance, it is my occupation, it is an extension of myself. It requires attention, nurturing, and feeding like anything else and if done properly returns love much like a child. But it is a ceaseless project. There is no memory day to day, only a "what will you give me now daddy" as if yesterday never counted.

What is also tough is that the shop is the vast majority of my social pool let alone workplace so I see the same people every day in or out of the place. This isn't to say that I think I have crappy friends, but after putting in hours at a place you are beholden to (unlike working for someone else where you can quit if you'd like or can come home to a different social network) then hanging out with the same people you just sort of crave more choices in life. Yes, technically nothing is stopping me from just driving to South Dakota for a week and bum around a state I've never been to, but I'm using the context of practicality here.

There are times that I feel inadequate deep-down, sometimes I am paranoid. Am I making the right choices? Am I doing what needs done? Why did I just blow up there? Did I remember to order this product in time for that event? Am I going to get sued? Am I going to go out of business? How much in taxes do I owe? What happens if I can't pay rent again? Did I upset or alienate someone?

Those are my biggest fears...that and dying. Ever since dad died I have been very concerned to the point where I don't sleep some nights because the thought paralyzes me. Fortunately there is enough of a distraction around to hold me over until I rationalize things down to a manageable level.

It's easy to say "we should do this, he shouldn't do that, she is bla bla bla" when you are younger and taken care of. When other people make the bad things go away and solve the hard decisions for you. Where you live without consequence and from your lifestyle you think you know better what is good for everyone else (and to see individuals as groups instead of just that...individuals). I think this is why I can never be a liberal, I actually have to live my own life and have the desire to help my community do the same so they can be independent persons and not a category. Again without getting into politics and sticking to facts, when you have to abide by the tax code, when you are forced to follow a certain regulation, or when you are just trying to make a damn living and other people want to hurt that by forcing you to do what they think is good and right...it's enough to make a person really sour. But that's my fierce spirit, my I-don't-take-crap approach insomuch as I can enforce it. It's different when you are on the other side of the counter, the paycheck, the burden of responsibility. I encourage you all to try it sometime.

Hmmm...I suppose if I were to tl;dr this it would be: "I enjoy what I do despite its many hardships." It is rewarding lest I wouldn't actually continue but sometimes a good vent to let out the frustration, anger, sadness, apprehension, and just to emotionally BREATHE and not have to be so socially/business balanced. So here is my hair let down if only for a little while.

Enjoy a random picture.

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Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010
7:27 pm
An interesting view.
On a personal note life has kept me busy. Things have been interesting and certainly a bit tight money-wise. Thanks to Congress and our President I am now considered a millionaire because of my GROSS income. So to all of you who support class warfare and vote for these people, thanks for raising my taxes because I make a NET 25k or so. Where do my "millions" of dollars go that I obviously use to smoke cigars with hundred dollar bills? Oh, let's see: rent, utilities, payroll, inventory, insurance, gas, groceries, and TAXES. So yeah, here's me venting a sarcastic thank you to you people who continue to vote in politicians who enact and rile up class warfare and feel that evil businessowners like me are holding out on paying my fair share into the massive shithole of debt they have wasted us into. I'm sorry I apparently oppressed you and am evil. You are really going to teach me a lesson by making it harder for me to hire more people and allow my business to survive let alone expand. I hope you feel awesome and FAIR about yourself. I certainly got what I deserved. Maybe you can teach me more of a lesson by continuing to support these people, it is obvious that you hate me (since I am a "millionaire" after all).

Here is 1/3 of what our unconstitutional, new, "fair" health care system will look like (as described in nearly 3,000 pages of law which I am sure everyone who voted for it read thoroughly and several times over):

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Want a bigger .pdf version of this for yourself?
http://www.house.gov/brady/pdf/Obamacare_Chart.pdf

From the press release...
http://www.house.gov/apps/list/press/tx08_brady/pr_100728_hc_chart.html
Saturday, June 26th, 2010
4:45 am
Ten Four Good Buddy
Frustration with government abounds. Apparently our constitution is just something we should forget about. Sigh. Is it November yet? Politically, anyway. I can't really want to waste away the summertime. Things at the shop are ok but I always seem to be baffled by something or another. Something comes up, a rival shop appears, so many products to stock but limited purchasing cash. It's a challenge. But an enjoyable one. For as much as I may be absent or grumble, it is something I love to do and hope that all of you with the entrepreneur's spirit come into your own with it.

My tenth high school anniversary is coming up soon. Ten years?! I'll have been without dad for four soon. Milestones, landmarks, and all manner of waysides that one can measure their life by keep on comin' down the pike. I work hard, I live as best I can. For the fact I can still do both I am thankful, and for all of those who have touched my life, even in negative ways, they all ultimately cumulate to who I am now. So thanks.
Saturday, May 29th, 2010
5:39 am
Amirite?
Worst president and congress ever? Not sure how this couldn't be. I'm certainly willing to hear otherwise if there's an idea because frankly...I've got nothing. And neither do they: mentally, constitutionally, or financially.

Also hi, I'm alive!
Monday, March 22nd, 2010
7:44 am
Shame on you.
Shame on you all Congressmen, politicians, and deal-brokers who spawned and voted for this. Shame on you citizens who support this. Shame on you all who voted for these people.

Shame on the unions and government itself exempted from this burden. Shame on those who received special deals and treatments to buy their vote. Shame on any of you who take this up and champion its existence.

Shame on us all if we don't do something about this.
Thursday, March 18th, 2010
11:07 pm
Disgusting.
And by that I mean what is going on in Congress over healthcare right now. This is just despicable. Is there anyone out there actually proud of this?
Thursday, February 4th, 2010
2:08 pm
Pat on the back.
Wow, the House of Reps. just gave themselves a $2T+ additional "limit" in debt that they can spend. Of course if they don't then "checks to Social Security recipients will have to end". I'm sure there is nowhere else they can stop spending as they make this threat against politically vulnerable people. This whole budget is a joke.

$2,000,000,000,000,000


See that number? That is ADDITIONAL DEBT we are drawing a line in the sand (on a windy day) to not cross. Two trillion. Not million. Not billion. Trillion. How do any of you out there actually take some kind of pride in what's going on? Hopefully you don't but I'm certainly open to hearing how someone can. Please tell me because I'm seeking some understanding. Apparently I am really missing something if this past year has been the best thing to happen to the history of our country since...well, they don't consider our Constitution a historical start so I can't really use that.
Friday, January 15th, 2010
10:08 am
Sickening
I've been off the radar a lot lately and that is mostly because I am trying to eke out my life and career, trying to grow and become successful. Making something of myself and helping others to realize their own talents and interests. As any of you who even glance at my LJ know I can be rather unabashed when it comes to my interests in our government. Thus the name for this post in reference to this article:

http://www.sphere.com/politics/article/obama-house-democrats-to-discuss-health-care-deal/19316582

So yeah. I guess that it was unfair that a law apply to everyone. So unless you are in a union you should be taxed for taking care of yourself with a "cadillac health plan" as it is referred to by politicians. Yup, an extra 40% on top of the premiums that you either pay yourself or your employer pays. For taking care of yourself. That amount of course will be passed on to you as an employee in reduced wages, reduced care, or as a consumer of the product that company produces, you will pay more for it because of this tax.

Hope and change, folks. I guess closed-door meetings that the public is barred from being in witness thereof is fundimental to this plan despite frequent promises of "transparency" and "this will be on C-SPAN". That sweetheart deals with lobbyists, despite the president's promises to keep those fat cats out. This is the one quote in the article that confuses me the most:

The breakthrough on the insurance tax marked a victory for the White House, which has long sought a tax on high-cost, employer-provided plans as a way of curbing the rise in health care expenditures.

How does this CURB a rise in health care expenditures when it RAISES THE COST! Well, unless you are in a union and capable of having someone go to the White House and negotiate with the president you funneled millions of dollars to during his campaign to make sure that you are exempt from national law that could affect you negatively. But for everyone else? It's ok. You deserve to be taxed because you are a fat cat. Because you aren't in a union. You should be penalized for success in your life.

And if this goes through and you lose health care coverage and/or the cost of products rise? Oh, it's the COMPANY'S FAULT for it. Obviously not the government's like the housing collapse was as well.

Four legs good, two legs bad.

Sickening.
Friday, January 1st, 2010
1:43 am
Moving and Shaking
Happy New Year!

Big things for the store this coming year. I am still upset with Congress. There's life for me haha. Catch you all around.
Wednesday, November 18th, 2009
9:08 pm
Amirite?
I'm pretty well damn fed up with this joke of a Congress and our presidential leadership. Trillions of dollars in future debt. No job creation, only tax creation. Fraud, lies, waste, expansion of government. There were aspects of Bush's presidency that I didn't like. But this one? This pile of garbage in D.C.? It is abhorrent. It is sickening. Feel free to call me out on any of this, but I sure would love to hear what supporters of what is going on to respond and try to shed some silver lining on the dark clouds of Washington. I don't care how deeply he bowed to the Japanese emperor, I care about policy and law.

Your responses, feedback, agreement, or dissent is welcome. I'm no censor.

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Thursday, October 8th, 2009
2:30 am
The rightful owners of your money.
This is from Detroit which is faring very badly for a myriad of reasons. Right now the city received some "stimulus" money which it is getting ready to hand out to people who qualify for various housing projects. Here is an interview with one such hopeful:

ROGULSKI: Did you get an application to fill out yet?
WOMAN: I sure did. And I filled it out, and I am waiting to see what the results are going to be.
ROGULSKI: Will you know today how much money you're getting?
WOMAN: No, I won't, but I'm waiting for a phone call.
ROGULSKI: Where's the money coming from?
WOMAN: I believe it's coming from the City of Detroit or the state.
ROGULSKI: Where did they get it from?
WOMAN: Some funds that was forgiven (sic) by Obama.
ROGULSKI: And where did Obama get the funds?
WOMAN: Obama getting the funds from... Ummm, I have no idea, to tell you the truth. He's the president.
ROGULSKI: In downtown Detroit, Ken Rogulski, WJR News.

So here it is. This is what our federal government is giving all of us - multigenerational debt. When every other program is going bankrupt they just print some more money and give it away. What exactly has putting us trillions of dollars in debt done? Unemployment is still rising, housing hasn't turned around, and now they want to wholly destroy our medical community to boot.

If we are reliant on them because they made us so miserable I guess we have no choice but to vote for them to continually save us since we obviously can't do it ourselves. Do you hear me? You are helpless, useless. You can't do anything on your own. Just give up. Don't worry, someone else will take care of you for you. Success is failure because if you succeed you are being unfair against those who aren't. Why do you even bother? Make someone else pay. It's someone else's fault. Someone else needs this important program. Tax those people, help those others.

I am so aggravated right now. Government isn't the solution, WE are the solution. The free market is the solution. The Constitution is the solution. Am I crazy, living in a dreamland?

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Thursday, October 1st, 2009
1:17 pm
Le tired.
The title is actually related to continuing national politics. I'm pretty taken aback by D.C. right now. Are any of you out there that actually voted for Obama having any kind of buyer's remorse? I mean...wow, just wow. I'm looking forward to 2010 and subsequently 2012 to come quickly. It's not just the White House, either. Congress is doing a royal job pissing me off as well.

Setting aside my reservations about our country's dictatorship leadership, things have been brisk. Considering many things, I am fortunate in that I have been able to hang in there business wise. It really takes the culmination of the local community to do so I can't take all the credit but to be the center of something special in the midst of hard times really warms my help. Teaching competition, responsibility, tenants of friendships and other relationships, it is just a wonderful experience (and would explain my politically misenthropic lean). Oh, I'm also 28 now as of 9/25. And have two cats.

All the same I hope that you all out there in LJ Land are doing well!

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Saturday, September 12th, 2009
12:39 am
Interesting Day
I've recently gotten back from Wisconsin at a retailers' summit and I'm bushed. It was a lot of fun. I still get my weekend to boot! I've come back with a lot of good ideas that will see the store continue to morph into even more of a success. So as to that I am quite happy.

As for our president...ug. Did any of you listen to his speech Wednesday? How about his speech (or specifically his deigning of the day) today en memorium to the eight anniversary of 9/11? How this man continues to both fascinate and deceive (fortunately now less than) half of America is beyond me. I've no doubt that he wants to help the United States but the way he intends on doing it is farcical. His single-minded purpose to lay the groundwork for universal healthcare would be impressive if it wasn't so destructive.

In other news it seems fall is settling in over Ohio which reminds me that I need to wash/wax my car to get it ready. I should also do a bit more cleaning around the store for this weekend and the apartment to lay the way for two of my sister's approximately seventeen cats*. It'll be good to see Baghera again.

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*Estimate only, true number of cats is currently unknown.
Wednesday, August 19th, 2009
9:44 pm
Summer's end.
Ah yes we are slowly crawling towards September and it has certainly been an interesting summer. I've been keeping on my toes (and not just politically) when it comes to a great many other things including the store. Speaking of, with the help of the webmaster I've guided it into an overhaul and I'd love the opinions of my peers: http://www.theherozone.com.

Things have been generally positive and I'm quite content. I hope that you all have been busy, productive, and/or happy as well. Get in some good barbecue while the weather holds and just take things steadily a day at a time. =)

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